Family

I remember being a teenager, and thinking that I would never grow old. Thinking the world would stand still, and I would always be 17. Partying, having a blast, not having to worry about anything...I thought that was the life. I was so naive!

I didn't realize how badly I wanted to grow up. How badly I just wanted to be an adult, to have a family, a career, and a purpose.

I couldn't imagine my life without Matthew, or my three beautiful babies! Even when they are sick, cranky, miserable, and totally getting on my nerves...lol. I never realized how much room my heart held for my family.

My wonderful family. My kids, niece and nephew!

Mason Linfitt, the newest member!!

It seems as though my family keeps getting bigger and bigger. I just welcomed the newest edition....Mason Christopher Linfitt, my new nephew was born on May 17th. He is such a sweetheart! Then, on the same day, I found out my sister, Janine, is also expecting!! How exciting! It just seems like your heart grows bigger and bigger and makes room for all the new people in your life. It's pretty amazing that one person could feel so much love for so many other people!

My little nephew on his first day home!

At the same time it holds so much room for the heartbreak you have to endure in your lifetime. On May 29th, it will be one year since Cory passed away. It breaks my heart everyday when I think of him, Christie and Sienna. They would have been the perfect family. I feel so bad for little Sienna who will never be held in her Daddy's arms. Something every little girl needs. I know she will know about him, his family and his wife would never let her live a life without him. My heart breaks for them.

I don't realize how lucky I am sometimes, and I take so many things for granted. I think I need to start taking the time to smell the rain, hold Logan for that one minute more than he needed, to kiss Madi's booboo's, and paint her toenails, and to appreciate all I have in my life. My family, my home, my career.

The three greatest things in my life!

I think of all the people in my life that have passed on, and how easily it could have been me, or my children, and it takes my breath away. Nothing is forever. Nothing is guaranteed. Except for today, and this moment.









Life is not measured by the breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away...









I am more lucky than I will ever allow myself to know.

Madison holdin a flower from Grandma Koslowski's funeral.

I miss her so much. I wish I could hear her tell just one more story...

What next?.....The psych ward??!! LOL

What next??!! My poor little Logan has been teething for the last couple of months, he has been getting crankier and crankier as the days go by. Then a little over a month ago, I was at mom's visiting when I noticed that he was really wheezy, so I brought him to the doctor. Well, he ended up having bronchitis. The doctor figured that there was a possibility of it being asthma, but Logan is too young to be tested for asthma.

He finally started getting better after being on an inhaler for over a week, and then all of a sudden, a few weeks later, he is all wheezy again. I bring him back to the doctor, and sure enough, it's bronchitis again...twice in less than a month. This doctor also thinks there is a high possibility of asthma. Anyway, he put him on two inhalers, a liquid form of Flovent, and an antihistamine. My poor little guy, in the meantime is teething hardcore. Talk about miserable!!

About three days ago his first tooth poked through, and he is really working on the second tooth! He is finally a little better and not so cranky.

(Logan and his first tooth!!)

Just when I was thinking that things were finally going to be a little less stressful, Madison wakes up at one in the morning, last night, screaming and crying. She was complaining of an earache... I could not do anything to make her feel better. She finally (with the help of Tylenol) fell asleep about 8 o'clock this morning. I am so exhausted.

I took her to the doctor this afternoon, and found out that she has a severe ear infection...DOES IT EVER END??!!

Oh, yes! I forgot to mention, my wonderful husband, Matthew also has a cold. Just a cold. Nothing more than a cold. You would think he is dying, though. It must be some form of a fatal cold...he is the worst of the three.

God grant me patience...I think I am about to go insane!!!

My Passion

(Ella - Jamie and Derrick Njaa's little girl)

I am so excited to have found a hobby to become totally obsessed with! I have recently taken up the hobby of photography. It is an extremely expensive, but fun and rewarding hobby. I took interest in it after I had my third baby in October. My sister bought me a camera for Christmas that year, and that was the start of my obsession! I was extremely surprised when Matthew came home on Valentine's Day with a brand new Panasonic FZ50! It was a Valentine's/Anniversary present which really impressed me, as Matthew doesn't usually acknowledge either occasion!

(My Logi-bear)

After I received my newest gift, I began snapping pictures, and haven't stopped yet, much to the dismay of my children...haha! Thank goodness Logan is still a baby and can't complain the way his older sister Madison can!

(Madison Marie)

I had some people ask me to take their pictures, which led Matthew to believe we could make a career out of this hobby of mine, so he found a place in Birch Hills to rent, and decided I should give it a try. I was extremely nervous, and didn't think I was ready...there is still so much I need to learn! However, Matt's faith in me ended up winning, and I have opened my new studio, First Impressions Photography. I am not swamped with clients by any means, but that is fine with me...it gives me much more learning time!

(What a handsome boy my Braydons is turning out to be!)

I have even been asked to do a wedding this summer, but I definately don't feel ready for that, and I am secretly hoping they decide to go with someone else. A wedding is way to important to let a beginner photograph.

(My beautiful Kidlets..Bray, Madi and Logan)

I am looking forward to the future, and wondering what it holds for my new found passion!